Hardly An Introduction

I really don't know what to say, beyond the fact that my life has been anything but normal in the past few months. Beyond losing a relationship, a job, and my place at the University of Missouri-Columbia, I've also gained a great deal. Most of what I've gained, is experience. Experience in dealing with whatever life gives me, and experience with taking life one day at a time, rather than constantly planning for a future and not living in the present.

This is the lesson I've needed to learn. My ex always told me to live every day one at a time. I never really understood how he could not plan his life, until now. I realize that it's not about not planning, but rather it is about not confirming your plans. You hope that things will go the way you plan, but if they don't, you have something, some way of a back up, and if the back up falls through...you deal. My plan was to graduate college, go to graduate school, and be out by May of 2009, finally ready to grasp the real world. That plan was rudely interrupted when the Truman School of Public Affairs at University of Missouri-Columbia told me that my academic career within their department was over, a year premature.

I went through somewhat of a depression for months. Luckily I had George, my supervisor at my internship, help me with this. He gave me guidance and assured me that, indeed, my life was not over. I would make it through, and should not give up. He told me of the programs at the University of Missouri-St. Louis and Southern Illinois University Edwardsville. Through his guidance, and many nights staying up late and pondering over my life, I determined that my life was not over.

I do sometimes fall into a depression about the way my life is, but no longer is it about school. I know what I'm doing with that. Now a days it is more of a depression that comes about when I look at my living situation, my money, and my lack of friends here in St. Louis. You see, most of my friends have moved away in the 5 years that I have been off at school. The economy is down, getting a job is harder than ever, and I have two degrees that mean just about crap without experience. But, nonetheless I am working as hard as I can to get one. Now that my internship is over, my full time job is unemployment, meaning that I have all the time in the world to look.

I have applied basically everywhere, and I'm scheduled to go to a few job fairs. Until I get a decent enough job to move out, I have been hired by a temp agency to do, basically any desk job they can give me. I signed up with them a month ago, but they didn't hire me for anything, because my internship with the City of Rock Hill, Missouri took up too much time. I gave them a call today (and will again on Monday) to assure them that my schedule has opened up, and I am available for whatever they can give me.

At this point, I just need to pay my bills.

Attention: There is Road Construction on Highway Life. Next to the Construction, there is a female HOBO on the side of the road... her name is Angela.. she is holding a sign saying "Down on Luck, Please Hire Me"