Today has been not like the rest. Of course, I have done the same things I've done in the last week or so (to a certain extent). I've gotten up early, gone to training at my new job, and focussed on the things important in my life, school, and my career. What I haven't been doing, is focusing on a relationship, or lack there of, however that thought seems to follow me.
Needless to say, I've found myself in the swing of the single life again. Constantly stimulated by a conversation here, or a phone call there, and when life as time to slow down, I think about the one or two guys I shouldn't think about. I can't control it that much, it just happens. It's ok, I am used to it.
Today though...Today was fantastic! Was?! no...Still is. I'm sitting at the Coffee Cartel, enjoying the cool air, waiting for a friend to show up and show me some company. Likewise, a new friend I met on okcupid is stopping by, probably to talk some more about grad school, and pick my brain, since he's looking towards an MPA or MPPA.
Both may show up and join me here in the "sweet" spot as my friend Don would say, or maybe just one will show up. Hell, both could decide to not show up at all and I'll still be sitting here, thinking how awesome today has been.
I don't really think I know why today has felt to good for me. It just has.
I thought I was going to write something much more profound, considering I am in the mood to be philosophical and what not. Oh well... for now, I will just enjoy the breeze.
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You know, I just thought about it. Maybe it's the fact that I finally am in a public service job (and getting paid for it). I feel like my passion is finally coming true. I am fighting for my country, by preventing a terrorist to repeat 9/11. I don't get paid a lot of money, but I feel fulfilled. I feel like my life is just about whole (now if only I could afford an apartment). Unlike most people, I am not driven much by money (I just need enough to survive). I really just want to be the best person I can be, and give back to the country that gave me the freedom to do whatever I wanted (include going into a field dominated by men). I feel so lucky in so many ways, and so fulfilled.
Times like this make me wish Dad was here to witness his "Political Daughter" join the public sector. I had this dream two weeks ago just after I found out that I got the job. I was sitting with Dad, somewhere public. I Don't know, maybe a coffeehouse somewhere? Regardless, he looked at me and smiled,and then said "Angela, I am so proud of you, you finally made it, and you did it all on your own." I was crying in my dream, and I woke up in tears.
I don't understand my atheist friends, because it's moments like that, when I know that was God, and even my father himself, telling me that he's there, watching me. That was his way of communicating with me, and telling me how much he understands the pain I had to endure over the last few years, and how hard I had to work to get where I am today.
I feel truly grateful... what a great day!
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