Changing...slowly

I don't claim to be the expert on relationships, in fact...I probably could learn a lot.  I went to my therapist today, and despite the fact that I've been sad, lonely, and depressed about this whole thing with Drew, I feel like I made progress in my session and still had 15 minutes to talk about television with her.

I have to stop seeing Drew as a possibility.  He's not stable, he doesn't have the capacity to love me, and I need to move forward.  I don't know if I'll be able to ever completely get over him, but my therapist was right; I have to make a choice.  Either I have to cut him out of my life completely, or I need to befriend him, knowing that he doesn't have the ability for anything more than that, no matter what his actions may seem to show.  He's not me, he doesn't think like me, it may seem that he is showing affection when he's just being friendly.  This is the biggest realization I think I have had to come to terms with, and I don't think I'm completely there yet.

Don't worry, I'll get there.

I find myself taking his thoughts personal, as if I'm not good enough.  She says I need to stop thinking of myself in that light.  I'm not sure if I really can.  I don't have the room to cry anymore...It's almost as if I'm numb.

I feel like I'm almost there, I just need to come to terms with this....